Jesus i need to be the joy
the smile that brightens up ppls days
i need to be the one that is asked,
"what is different about you?"
but Lord all i am is a blur that blends right in
my struggles have been wiped away by the blood
but i complain like they are still the same
i have the answer, the cure
that ppl die to have
and live to die for
but i cant find it
i have seemed to have misplaced it
maybe i hid it
and have chosen to forget where i put it
i put on a fake smile sometimes
and ask how ppl are
really not caring but i am lost in my pride
my selfishness blocks the compassion
my eyes feel heavy
i run from the world and run from God
left to myself in a empty void

i close my eyes to get away
i want to run away
if i close my eyes i get only temporary freedom
a release is needed that i want to be effortless
i want my walk to come easily
i dont want to sweat when i climb this mountain
i want to walk backwards
and believe that i wont trip over a twig

smiles on a.i.m. are my facade
if i hide behind this false image then things will be different
but Lord it tears me up
this strengh i think i am
i look for ppl like me and run when i find them
i am scared of ppl
i am scared of myself
this life is too hard to walk around on my hands
but Lord that is all i know
break these habbits,
break my everything and start over

I dont know what to do
Jesus is my only safety
i need him. i cant live w/out him.
i am ruined for this world
to go back would be deception i dont need
i dont have time to waste
i am waste
if it wasnt for Jesus i would remain a filthy rag

Jesus is my everything
i am weak He is strong
He delights in me